Inspirationshiverish?

How many times can someone or something be inspiring until you reach "inspirational overkill"?

The last couple of years, I'm inspired by lots of things.

Song lyrics.



Movies.



Books.

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People around you who say things that make you think or dig deeper.
A friend of mine gave me this one:
"Live the life you love, love the life you live."

Truth be told, I love to get inspired. I'm open for inspiration. Every time of every new day.

Still, when I feel lectured, or when people go on-and-on about a certain subject with the main goal to "convert" you, I have the tendency to back away. Not that I don't respect or value their opinions or believes. No - there's this pressure that comes with it that suffocates me. It feels like I get deprived of my own choices. And the only thing that happens is I get annoyed, angry even. And I don't like that state.

When I look at the core of my existence, you could say I'm an explorer. An explorer of this magical state we call life. I love the mystical ways of the universe. That we don't know everything. That we don't have to know everything. To create a beautiful and fulfilling life for ourselves.

Still - there's so much to explore. To find. To make you wonder.

I believe in spirituality. But I don't believe in the rules and restrictions of religion. You have to do this, and leave that. I don't feel I have to be in awe for this figure, this creator of life. To live life according to a Book.
Which contradicts with what happens when I'm truly inspired by another human being. I get hooked in a certain way, and read as much as I can about this person, or listen to things that he/she says. I breathe him or her, because I'm in awe of their way of thinking, their way of writing, their wisdom. Still, I do not accept everything they say as "truth". I pick at their brains, but still use mine.
I feel that's why I'm not into religion as a whole. I need to have my freedom to use my own brain. To search and find. To breathe my own "truth".

This doesn't make life easier. No. Sometimes I wonder whether "believing completely" would create more space for myself. I constantly have questions, constantly am open to new information, more sources of wisdom. Constantly aware of the world and it's resources. The world is this open market, and everywhere you turn you find new stalls that invite you to try this new product. And I do. Every time. And love it. So, would I want it any other way?

I need to be inspired, to search for my own truths while listening to others to feel alive. To be alive. I need new angles, new ways of life, new mysteries - find the nectar to fill my beehive.
My beehive is my home of truths. Beehive = believe.

So, "inspirational overkill" isn't in the cards for me. I will always be inspired, even when I don't agree with everything I see and get inspirationshiverish. I gather knowledge, I gather love - this is is my word. This is my religion.

I'm rambling. I know.
Ramble on.

Love,
San